{"id":1779,"date":"2013-03-18T21:07:22","date_gmt":"2013-03-19T03:07:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jacobhickford.com\/?p=1779"},"modified":"2013-03-18T21:25:51","modified_gmt":"2013-03-19T03:25:51","slug":"fear-creeps-in","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jacobhickford.com\/?p=1779","title":{"rendered":"Fear Creeps In"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"2013-03-18<\/a>Sometimes the fear creeps in.\u00a0 Most days, I have this down…\u00a0pressing forward,\u00a0nerves in tact, smiling sweetly – I’m told.\u00a0 But somedays I break.\u00a0 It seems that tonight, today, has been one of those days.\u00a0 Today, Jake was wonderful.\u00a0 He was bouncy and playful and full of life.\u00a0 Until the meds\u00a0knocked him out, he played and played with one of his little friends. In fact, he pretty much took a doctor\u00a0DOWN as he and his friend were big wheel racing thru the infusion room (that\u00a0Doc will pay better attention in the future when he hears wheels burning up the hallway.) \u00a0Other than the usual, port access and long day, it was a pretty good day for him.\u00a0 But for me, it’s been\u00a0emotional.\u00a0 I met a very special mom and her\u00a0little boy.\u00a0 He’s just a year older than Jake and I can’t get him out of my mind.\u00a0 He was having such a hard day and he looked so worn out.\u00a0 He’s been fighting for\u00a0a while.\u00a0 In 2010 he was diagnosed, for the first time.\u00a0 He made it to the other side… NED!\u00a0 Then, the cancer returned.\u00a0 Neuroblastoma, just like Jake.\u00a0 It’s such an angry, tortuous\u00a0disease.\u00a0It stalks and lies in wait while it quietly\u00a0ravages the body of your child. \u00a0 I talked to her for a while and she was kind, and tired, and sad.\u00a0 I could tell in her sweet smile, she is so, so sad and her hope is being pushed to it’s limits.\u00a0 Tonight I just can’t dry my eyes, for my heart pains for her.\u00a0 As a mom, my heart truly aches for her… and as a mom of a cancer kid, my heart has a depth of hurt that I can’t ever put into words.\u00a0 I have prayed for her all day.\u00a0 As she held her son in her lap this afternoon, I watched and held back tears as I sat and held my sleeping son.\u00a0 So tonight, I ask you all to pray for this family.\u00a0 I didn’t ask if I could post their names so I won’t, but God knows who they are.\u00a0 I ask you all to pray for her son’s\u00a0healing, for good days, and for hope to be strengthened within her.\u00a0 She knows God, we talked, and I know she knows Him well.\u00a0 But I just feel the need to ask all of Jake’s prayer warriors to lift her up and ask God to fill her up.\u00a0 This is so hard.\u00a0 This cancer life is SO HARD!\u00a0 Tomorrow we\u00a0are back at TCH for\u00a0Jake’s CT scan to prepare for surgery.\u00a0 I’ll post again, with a more positive message, I promise.\u00a0\u00a0 “The Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.”\u00a0 Romans 8:26<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sometimes the fear creeps in.\u00a0 Most days, I have this down…\u00a0pressing forward,\u00a0nerves in tact, smiling sweetly – I’m told.\u00a0 But somedays I break.\u00a0 It seems that tonight, today, has been one of those days.\u00a0 Today, Jake was wonderful.\u00a0 He was bouncy and playful and full of life.\u00a0 Until the meds\u00a0knocked him out, he played and … <\/p>\n

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